I am ashamed to admit
That I am an American.
I buy things I do not need,
I buy things I already have,
That are just slightly different.
I own 3 tarot decks, why?
I play guitar, and own 9 of them.
I have some pedals
Most of which are
Different flavors of distortion.
I only ever use a couple of them.
The rest sit in a drawer,
Collecting dust,
Waiting to see the light of day.
Waiting for a shift in my tastes.
Waiting for me to get smarter
(Fuzz Factory pedals are a trip).
I rebuilt my pedal board,
And added one pedal.
The entire surface of the board is now in use.
Next to no empty spaces.
The thing is looking great.
2 or 3 fuzzes, depending on who you ask,
A Klon Clone,
Compressor/Overdrive
Chorus and delay,
A goddamn Whammy pedal,
And a tuner.
All of them have their uses in the songs
I am making.
I used some stimi money to buy
The Ultimate noise-maker;
An Earthquake Devices Data Corrupter.
That pedal is a wild ride and absolutely crazy.
All of this stuff is just capitalism,
Masquerading itself as arts.
It's the tool to a builder,
The knives to the chef.
The sounds could be achieved digitally,
But I insist on the physical.
Have to have the blu-ray of a movie,
The vinyl copy of the new record.
I want the experience of my hands on the object.
That tactile experience cannot be replicated.
The same way seeing a movie at home,
Will never compare to seeing one in a theater.
I think there is value in those experiences,
But fewer people tend to agree,
And those experiences now come at a premium.
Like a good American, I buy and I buy.
Get some credit and buy even more.
I have a month to scrape together the money
To actually pay for it.
The though of "Should I"
Never seems to cross my mind.
Maybe I am broken,
Maybe I was made this way.
I think I may start a count of how many days I can go
Before I spend more money.
The exception being student loans,
Cause reasons.
College is really expensive and so far really pointless.
Seems you need multiple degrees
To be considered "Qualified"
For a job that will pay well enough
To pay off those loans.
No wonder I have worked multiple jobs since I was 18.
When two generations prior you could work a summer job
And have enough money to pay for
An entire year of college.
My summer job barely got me enough money for books.
Don't tell me I need to work harder.
Fuck you.
Shit is expensive
And only getting more expensive.
Today is day one without spending money.
Hopefully my will is stronger
Than my heritage.
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