top of page
Search
Writer's pictureSteven Sauro

The Mess: 5.5.22

I am ashamed to admit

That I am an American.

I buy things I do not need,

I buy things I already have,

That are just slightly different.

I own 3 tarot decks, why?

I play guitar, and own 9 of them.

I have some pedals

Most of which are

Different flavors of distortion.

I only ever use a couple of them.

The rest sit in a drawer,

Collecting dust,

Waiting to see the light of day.

Waiting for a shift in my tastes.

Waiting for me to get smarter

(Fuzz Factory pedals are a trip).

I rebuilt my pedal board,

And added one pedal.

The entire surface of the board is now in use.

Next to no empty spaces.

The thing is looking great.

2 or 3 fuzzes, depending on who you ask,

A Klon Clone,

Compressor/Overdrive

Chorus and delay,

A goddamn Whammy pedal,

And a tuner.

All of them have their uses in the songs

I am making.

I used some stimi money to buy

The Ultimate noise-maker;

An Earthquake Devices Data Corrupter.

That pedal is a wild ride and absolutely crazy.

All of this stuff is just capitalism,

Masquerading itself as arts.

It's the tool to a builder,

The knives to the chef.

The sounds could be achieved digitally,

But I insist on the physical.

Have to have the blu-ray of a movie,

The vinyl copy of the new record.

I want the experience of my hands on the object.

That tactile experience cannot be replicated.

The same way seeing a movie at home,

Will never compare to seeing one in a theater.

I think there is value in those experiences,

But fewer people tend to agree,

And those experiences now come at a premium.

Like a good American, I buy and I buy.

Get some credit and buy even more.

I have a month to scrape together the money

To actually pay for it.

The though of "Should I"

Never seems to cross my mind.

Maybe I am broken,

Maybe I was made this way.

I think I may start a count of how many days I can go

Before I spend more money.

The exception being student loans,

Cause reasons.

College is really expensive and so far really pointless.

Seems you need multiple degrees

To be considered "Qualified"

For a job that will pay well enough

To pay off those loans.

No wonder I have worked multiple jobs since I was 18.

When two generations prior you could work a summer job

And have enough money to pay for

An entire year of college.

My summer job barely got me enough money for books.

Don't tell me I need to work harder.

Fuck you.

Shit is expensive

And only getting more expensive.

Today is day one without spending money.

Hopefully my will is stronger

Than my heritage.

12 views0 comments

Recent Posts

See All

Another One?

So, I guess I am doing this again. Sending out my thoughts into the void. I do not know why, but writing these, actually helps me feel...

I am back?

Well this is weird. I know it has been a long time. More than one year of silence. What have I been doing? Good question, tonight at ten....

Comments


bottom of page