Rut or structure;
A difference of perspective.
6:30 am
Alarm
Snooze
6:38
Alarm
Snooze
6:47
Alarm
Out of bed.
7:00 to
3:00
Work.
Mostly just
TV Shows
Or Movies.
15 movies
Last week alone.
3:05 to
Sleep
Make Music,
Read Books,
Watch TV
(Only on Good Doctor Monday)
Maybe wind down
With another movie.
Midnight,
Try to sleep
1:00
Try to sleep
2:00
Hopefully asleep.
5:30
Wake,
Gotta beat the alarm.
Praying for daylight Savings Time
So my room is dark
In the morning.
I will admit to not writing
In my notebooks as much,
This space has replaced
That need.
This is off the cusp,
Stream of consciousness,
And can be edited,
Without wasting the ink
In my pen.
It feels good to get it out,
But at the same time,
I miss the intimacy of my book,
The tactile feel of the pages,
The romanticism,
Tying me in with every other writer,
Who put pen to paper.
This is a public space,
I mean no one really reads this,
But they could,
And that changes things for me.
I do not hold back,
But it just is a different feeling.
I have detailed out
My daily schedule above,
But there is no time for writing.
I used to think
I was more creative later in the day,
But with work,
I am more tired,
More burnt out actually.
Not like I am actually tired,
Just lacking the motivation.
I saw the best local bands showcase
At First Ave last Friday,
And was blown away
By the talent
Displayed on that stage.
Motivated to try and join them.
I saw a lot of myself in the groups,
Same abilities,
Same songwriting sensibilities.
Just need to keep at it,
Keep putting myself out there,
Anything can happen,
But as an old teacher says,
"You have to be in the game."
Well; game, meet player;
Player, meet game.
I really hope that makes sense...
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