Someone I used to know
Loved weird classical music.
Technically it wasn't classical,
But it was in the tradition of
High art music.
Where its not artists or bands,
But Composers
So much fancier
So much more civilized.
People like Cage
(Not Nicholas)
Or Stravinsky.
I don't think about this person often
(Okay I lie, it's kind of often)
But I did recently
Because I heard a podcast talking about
Stravinsky's famous work
The Rite of Spring.
The piece of music so dissonant
It caused a riot.
Naturally I want to see
What all the fuss is about.
I want to hear what caused a riot.
In my opinion, riots are caused by
Thefts of justice,
Like Chauvin to George Floyd.
I hate that she would be happy,
I hate that I still think about her.
Nothing good has come from knowing her,
She is my dark side.
Just pure evil,
Kill the younglings
Kind of dark side.
I am torn because I want
To listen to The Rite of Spring,
But I cannot do that without
Thinking of her.
And I just don't want to do that.
Why does someone hold this much space
In my brain,
STILL..
It has been years,
And she is still there,
Living rent free.
Can you evict the memory of someone?
Can you force them out of your brain
Out of your thoughts?
Take a magic wand to your temple
And extract the memory,
Stick it in the prison of a little vial,
Or let it float in the bowl of water,
I put so much stuff into my head,
Music, Movies, Television,
Other people,
And still she remains.
Maybe I loved her
I do not know.
Maybe I am making this
Bigger than it really is,
But I don't think so,
I am just trying to articulate my thoughts,
And what I am feeling.
I should contact her,
NO,
I should be locked up
Away from all technology
For even thinking,
Yet alone typing
Such a terrible idea.
If you see this,
Tweet at me
@stevensauro
Tell me I am stupid,
Tell me I am wrong,
Tell me it gets better?
Please...
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