I am out of shape
shouldn't surprise me
i don’t work out
ever
but I’m shallow
i judge people
by their shape
myself included
every morning
the mirror shows me
all of my flaws
the shapes that got
more round than I remember
One of my biggest fears
is being my father
wake up
go to work
come home
eat a meal
and fall asleep
in my chair
they say I take after
my grandpa
but i dont wanna be like him
my memories of him
are of racism
being diabetic
and when I was young
thinking he was pregnant
but that’s the way he looked
all belly
all things
that I don’t want to be
so I am gonna work
on my shape
running is bullshit
and I have a bad knee
but damnit I don’t wanna be
just like them
genetics be damned
i will shape myself into
who I want to be
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