Dumbass Hours

Have you ever had a realization that rocked your world

Like when you figured out that Santa wasn't real

Or that your parents were the tooth fairy

Because bullies got better presents

And your friends got dollars instead of quarters for their teeth

Or when you figured out that you were in love for the first time

Or faked being in love so you wouldn't be alone

Or never told someone you were in love because you were afraid

The heartbreak was too much to even imagine

And you didn't want to go through that again

The loss of someone you knew

Trying to turn them into a stranger again

Or maybe you finally figured out that you were raped

That you never consented

And were afraid of doing so again

Disappointing people seemed scarier than what they could do to you

But you doubt that anyone will want you that way if you wanted it too

And you realize you're a dumbass

You have no self-esteem

And your time isn't as valuable as someone else's

Because they're the ones with the money

And you're damaged goods that nobody wants to buy

And you're scared to let them know the truth

Because you don't have anything else to cling to

And lying is easier than love anyway