I haven't been this drunk since October 2018
And I've never felt simultaneously wonderful and empowered
And agonizingly lonely
On one hand, I'm kissing a beautiful woman who I love dearly
On the other hand, all I want is a beautiful person to kiss and call my own
And maybe be the observer as they drunkenly smooch their loved ones
But, today I watched as my sister fawned over a guy who didn't want to be with us in the first place.
And as I got drunker and drunker without questions
And a stranger told me my own darkest secret
I'm afraid of what I can't control
I'm afraid of who I can't understand
But, I'm hoping that my reading was right
I've got a shot at happiness with someone else
Maybe it's with someone I already love
Maybe it's buried behind the depression and the music
But I hope they'll realize someday
That I'm a good kisser too, I guess
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